Out of the Boat and Into the Water

Last night I taught on fear at church. It was such an appropriate topic. The topic was picked months ago - before some major things happened at church and before some major things happened in my own life. Isn't it funny how God works that way? So, as I was teaching, I was also teaching myself. My main passage was Matthew 14:23-33. I tied a lot of my ideas into the things I learned in the book If You Want to Walk on Water, You Have to Get Out of the Boat. I am taking a step of faith and moving toward what Jesus wants me to do. Sometimes I am scared and sometimes I have perfect peace about it.

I don't know what the next few years will hold as I move towards licensure in counseling. I do know that it won't be easy, but it will be exciting to learn new things. I do know that God will continue to give me people to help. I am constantly amazed at the hurts my students hold. I am truly honored and inspired that they choose to share their stuff with me. I want to be able to help them better and through the learning I will be doing, I think that is possible. I don't know what my job description will look like down the line. I do know that as long as I am working for Jesus, it doesn't matter where I am. (That was a hard lesson learned.)

So last night was bittersweet in so many ways. I will miss my STEP family very much. I know I will see most of them at church on a regular basis. And thank goodness for email. I do hope to go back to STEP; it is in my heart to serve in that area. The coolest thing was that I was so supported by my friends. They all affirmed what God has been telling me and although they were sad I was leaving, they were also sure I was doing the right thing. This morning, I got an email from the college I am interested in. I hadn't heard anything from them yet and I sent off for information a few weeks ago. To me, that was a God thing. It reaffirms my decision. Although I have fears about some of the stuff involved with going back to school, I will take my own advice by taking a step out of the boat and moving toward Jesus. I will spend this weekend getting my application and financial aid paperwork ready. Hopefully, I can start classes in the Spring. I will keep you updated.