Do I seem distant to you?
Take no offense -
the longing for solitude runs deep
through my veins, through my soul
Each of you adds to my understanding
of myself, of my world
but small doses are required
too many voices, the cacophony in my head overwhelms
I need to escape from the pounding din of activity
to the solitude of myself
so I can re-charge for the togetherness
that is required on this journey of outside my box
A lifetime spent in hiding from my reality
hiding the truth, the secrets, the lies
has not prepared me well for the world
I’m moving toward you, but slowly…
The solitude I seek heals me
I turn inward, reflect, listen, feel -
so I can move toward you as myself
it keeps the cacophony in my head from overwhelming
so if I seem distant
understand how far I’ve come
the longing for solitude runs deep
through my veins, through my soul
I wrote this as a response to the feelings I am having being away from home and with a group of virtual strangers for two weeks. It is an explanation as well as a way to explore myself further.
3 comments:
Wow, Kimberly, I really like this. It resonates deeply with me and my journey too. I, too, know the desire to move toward others paired with the need to do it slowly. I love the lines "the longing for solitude run deep/through my veins, through my soul." Yep. You nailed that. Those lines will be meandering through my heart for a while. Thanks for sharing your feelings in such a compelling way.
Ditto for me, too. I don't think about how much I keep my distnace from people until I need someone or am going through something and wish I had someone to call or cry to. Thanks for your openness and honesty.
Love it, love it, love it! I've been acutely aware of my introverted self since my extroverted mother-in-law came for a 2 month visit. It's as though I need to regroup through solitude more often than I think I should. What the heck! I'm an introvert!
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