That is a quote from Bill Hybels that I really wanted to own on a heart level, to exist in, to live in - completely yielded to my God. The rubber hit the road at 3:30 this morning.
My husband getting ready for work woke me up. My poor sleep addled brain started to process some more about the summit and all God is speaking to my heart. I tried to shut it off, go back to sleep. Then I heard the whisper, "Pray to me, ask your questions, wrestle with the hard stuff, LISTEN to what I speak to your heart." I spoke back, "At 3:30 in the morning? I really just want to go back to sleep God, but if you really want me to talk to you now, I will."
So I sat up in bed, adjusted my pillows so I wasn't comfortable enough to go back to sleep and I asked God all of the questions that have been buzzing in my head. Mostly I asked for answers to the things I think he wants me to do. I asked for clarification of whether I was really hearing him or not. I asked for guidance. For the past several months I have been journaling my prayers, but this morning, I just prayed in bed, me and God. I didn't analyze, I didn't correct, I just prayed and cried. And then I got quiet. I just sat in my bed, surrounded by the presence of God and listened. I don't know how long I sat before I heard the whisper. But it was loud and clear. "Let people know about the International Justice Mission. And yes, you will be used to help abuse victims, but not in the way you thought." Okay God, I heard you. Now I will do what you asked of me. I don't know where you will lead, but I will follow. And God, keep my heart pure, keep my resolve strong.
Yes, at 3:30 in the morning was daunting, but I don't want to miss out on what God has for me. I am grateful that my heart was open and my self was willing.
So if you didn't know about the International Justice Mission, read about them here. http://www.ijm.org/ They are doing really good work and I would like to be a part of their mission for justice. If we want justice in the world, it is JUST US that have to go after it.
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Wow what a powerful post, there is also more resources from IJM that you could check out, such as the website of Gary Haugen's lates book Just Courage, www.justcourage.com. It is so encouraging to hear about the ways in which God stirs people up to carry out his work of justice- Lyn from IJM HQ
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